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She has cancer.

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Miss Bearing, you have cancer
advanced metastatic to the ovaries.

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Continue, please.

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- Do you teach, Miss Bearing?
- Yes, like you, Dr. Kelekian.

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Certain.

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So, you have an illness
which was not detected...

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neither to the first, nor to the second,
nor to the third stage.

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- Now, it's an insidious adenocarcinoma...
- Insidious?

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"Insidious" means undetectable
at an early stage...

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I would say that he strikes by surprise.

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- Do you want me to continue?
- Yes, of course.

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Well.

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In invasive epithelial carcinomas,

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the most effective treatment modality
It's definitely chemotherapy.

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We are fine-tuning
an experimental combination of drugs,

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intended specifically for ovarian tumors
who are in the third stage...

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and beyond.

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Do you find it runs too much?

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Oh, no.

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She will be admitted to hospital
at each treatment cycle.

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She will be admitted to hospital
at each treatment cycle.

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After the first eight cycles,
you will undergo another series of tests.

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Inevitably, antineoplastic drugs
will damage some healthy cells,

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including those
along the gastrointestinal tract,

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from lips to anus
and hair follicles.

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Thanks to his determination,

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we're sure she can handle it
some of the more serious side effects.

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Miss Bearing?

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Oh, sorry, professor.

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- So far, do you have any questions to ask?
- Go ahead, please.

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- Perhaps some terms are unknown to you...
- No, no, I would say it was very exhaustive.

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Thank you. I care a lot about it.
You know, I always say this to my students.

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Oh, yes, me too. I keep repeating
the word "precision", to my students,

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but they are by constitution
refractory to accuracy.

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- Yours too?
- Oh, every year it's worse.

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- My parents are blind.
- Oh, so my parents are deaf.

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- We can't do anything but hope.
- I suppose so.

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Where were we, doctor?

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He was giving me an accurate diagnosis.

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Right.

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Now, the tumor is expanding
very quickly...

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and this treatment is very aggressive.

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- Everything clear so far?
- Yes.

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- You're not teaching next semester.
- It's out of the question.

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The first week of each cycle,
she will be hospitalized for chemotherapy.

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The following week
you will feel a little tired.

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- But I'll be fine afterwards. Relatively.
- Will it be approximately 8 months?

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Believe me, this cure is the thing
most effective we can offer you.

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Also, as a search, it will give a significant
contribution to our knowledge.

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Knowledge. Yes.

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Here, now I'll show you our form
for informed consent.

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If you agree, you can sign there, at the bottom.

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He wants you to talk about it
with any of your family members?

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No, it's not necessary.

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Well.

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The important thing is that she hires
the full dose of chemotherapy.

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It may happen that you want a lower dose,
due to side effects.

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But we have to push hard.

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- Dr. Bearing?
- Yes?

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It will have to be very strong.

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Will he be able to be very strong?

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Yes, he will succeed.

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Well.

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Excellent.

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I should have asked more questions,

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because I would have become
an experimental guinea pig.

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- Hello, how are you today?
- Well.

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Great. How beautiful.

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Believe me, I don't usually say hello
in this way.

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I prefer to orient myself
onto something a little more formal,

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less... indiscreet.

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Like, for example, "hello".

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But this is the standard greeting here,
so I just say "good".

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Obviously it doesn't happen often
that I feel good.

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I was asked, "How are you feeling today?"
while I was throwing up in a sink.

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I was asked,

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after undergoing a 4-hour operation,

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with a tube in each orifice:

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"How are you feeling today?"

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I expect they will ask me this question
even when she is dead.

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Too bad he won't hear it.

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I have cancer.

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An insidious cancer,
with serious side effects.

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No, it's the cure
which has serious side effects.

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I have metastatic ovarian cancer
to the fourth stage.

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And now I know that there is no fifth stage.

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They say I have to be very strong.

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It seems that this is a question,
as they say,

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of life or death.

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I know everything about life and death.

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After all, I am a professor
who teaches 18th century poetry,

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specialized in <i>Sacred Sonnets</i>
by John Donne,

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that explore mortality
more deeply...

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than any other collection of works
in English.

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So I know for sure that I am strong.

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An inflexible teacher...

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who hates compromises,

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but who willingly accepts a challenge.

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Here's why
I chose to study John Donne...

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with the illustrious professor E.M. Ashford.

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Oh, is it her?

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His essay on <i>Sacred Sonnet number 6...</i>

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It's melodramatic and not worthy of her.

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It also doesn't say anything about Donne.
Do it again.

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<i>Start from the text, Miss Bearing,
not from a feeling.</i>

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<i>"Death, do not be proud,</i>

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"even if some have called you
terrible and powerful, because,

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"you're not."

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She completely omitted it
the fulcrum of poetry,

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because, I really have to tell him,
he used an edition of the text...

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whose punctuation
It's not the original one.

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- In Gardner's edition of the text...
- But that edition no longer exists...

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- Miss Bearing?
- Excuse me.

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She takes it too lightly.

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This is metaphysical poetry,
not modern novels.

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The levels of knowledge
and critical reading,

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suitable for any other text,
here they are decidedly insufficient.

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The effort must be total
for the results to be significant.

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Think maybe punctuation
of the last line of this sonnet...

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Is it just an insignificant detail?

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The sonnet begins
with a courageous fight against death,

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calling on all forces
of intellect and dramatic art...

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to defeat the enemy.

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But, ultimately, the theme is overcoming
seemingly invincible barriers...

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that separate life,
death and eternal life.

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In the edition you have chosen,
this profound and simple meaning...

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is sacrificed
to hysterical punctuation.

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"And Death", capital M,

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"will no longer exist", semicolon.

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"Death", capital M, comma,

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"you will die", exclamation mark.

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If you prefer this kind of thing,
then choose Shakespeare.

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Gardner's edition
of the <i>Sacred Sonnets...</i>

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refers to the Westmoreland manuscript
of 1610.

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I assure you that the only reason
so I insist on this point...

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It's because Helen Gardner
She is an illustrious scholar.

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It reads:

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"And there will be no more death", comma.

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"Death you will die."

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Just a breath, a comma,

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separates life
from what is eternal life.

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It's very simple.

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By restoring the original punctuation,
death is no longer something...

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gesturing on a stage
with exclamation points.

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It's a comma. A pause.

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In this way, without compromise,

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we learn something from this poem,
don't you think so?

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Life, death, soul, God,

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the past, the present.

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No insurmountable barriers.

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No semicolons.

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Just a comma.

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Life, death, I understand.

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It is a metaphysical concept. It's spirit!

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- I'll go back to the library and rewrite it.
- It's not spirit, it's reality.

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Poetry has nothing to do with it.

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Oh, no?

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Vivian, you are a brilliant young woman.

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Use your intelligence.

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You must not return to the library.
Go around.

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Go out with friends, have fun.

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<i>I... I followed his advice.</i>

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<i>It was a warm day.</i>

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<i>There were students on the lawn.
They talked about this and that and laughed.</i>

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<i>There were students on the lawn.
They talked about this and that and laughed.</i>

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<i>It was simple human reality.</i>

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Inflexible cultural standards.

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Are they connected?

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I just know that I don't...

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I went back to the library.

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At least...

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Let's see...

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“Significant contribution to knowledge.”

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"8 cycles of chemotherapy."

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Give me the maximum dose.

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The maximum dose, every time.

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<i>The attention was flattering...</i>

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<i>for the first 5 minutes.</i>

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- Name?
- My name?

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- Vivian Bearing.
- Oh?

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Bearing. B-E-A-R-l-N-G.

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Vivian, V-l-V-l-A-N.

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- Doctor?
- Yes, I teach at university.

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His doctor?

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00:12:03,120 --> 00:12:05,279
Oh, Dr. Harvey Kelekian.

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I have a degree in philosophy.

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Take a deep breath and hold it.

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Very good.

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I teach 18th century poetry.

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Arms above your head and remain still.

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Well.

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I made a big contribution
to the study of English literature.

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In other words,
they say I'm someone who matters.

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We're done.

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Name?

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Lucy, Countess of Bedford.

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- It doesn't appear here.
- My name is Vivian Bearing.

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B-E-A-R-l-N-G.
My doctor is Dr. Kelekian.

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Well. Lie down.

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After an amazing
student career,

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I studied with Professor Ashford
for 3 years,

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during which I learned,
through application and example,

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what does it mean
be an eminent scholar.

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As a researcher,
I mainly had the task...

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to arrange the cards in alphabetical order
of Ashford's critical edition...

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on <i>Devotions on unexpected occasions</i>
of Women.

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I also got a thank you
in the preface.

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"To Miss Vivian Bearing,
for your collaboration."

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Thank you.

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Where is your wheelchair?

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00:14:01,232 --> 00:14:04,435
I swear I don't know,
since I was busy.

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00:14:04,527 --> 00:14:06,769
And how do you plan to leave?

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00:14:06,988 --> 00:14:09,657
- Maybe walking.
- No, it's not allowed.

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00:14:10,533 --> 00:14:13,450
Well, then I don't know.
Maybe I could settle here.

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00:14:13,786 --> 00:14:16,158
I think he'll have to go
to look for one.

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00:14:17,873 --> 00:14:20,446
Don't worry because of me.

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00:14:26,840 --> 00:14:28,480
Miss Bearing, this is Jason Posner.

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He will take care of your medical history
and I will also ask you some questions.

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He is an assistant to Dr. Kelekian.

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I'm Dr. Posner, clinical researcher
of the Division of Medical Oncology.

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Sit here, please.

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00:14:40,770 --> 00:14:44,139
You know, when I was a student
at university...

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- I attended his poetry class.
- Really?

224
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Yes. I remember it was excellent.

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Well, thanks.

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- Masters in literature?
- No. In biochemistry.

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But I wanted to go to medical school
well tempered.

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So I swore to myself that I would overcome
the three most difficult exams in the faculty.

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And how did it go?

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- A success.
- Really?

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00:15:04,376 --> 00:15:07,661
I got a 28. I struggled quite a bit.

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- Yes. I'll call you.
- All right.

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I move the chair closer...

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First things first,
I will address your medical history...

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with medical questions
and then I will visit it.

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To tell the truth,
the doctor Kelekian has already done so.

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Oh, I know. But she wants me to visit her too.

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Very good.

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I'd say we can start.

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- How are you feeling today?
- Fine thanks.

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- Excellent. And your health in general?
- Well.

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Optimal.

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- We know she is a famous academic.
- Yes, we have established this.

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- So we won't talk about his work.
- No.

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- How old is he?
- 48.

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- Is she married?
- No.

247
00:15:54,882 --> 00:15:56,340
-Do you still have your parents?
- No.

248
00:15:56,425 --> 00:15:58,085
How and when did they die?

249
00:15:58,177 --> 00:16:02,221
My father suddenly,
of a heart attack when I was 21.

250
00:16:02,305 --> 00:16:07,382
My mother slowly,
between the ages of 41 and 42, of breast cancer.

251
00:16:07,477 --> 00:16:09,351
- Cancer?
- Yes, at the breast.

252
00:16:09,437 --> 00:16:12,391
- I understand. Does he have brothers?
- No.

253
00:16:12,482 --> 00:16:14,770
Now let's move on
to your personal medical history.

254
00:16:14,859 --> 00:16:19,320
- Have you ever been hospitalized?
- Yes, I had my tonsils removed at the age of 8.

255
00:16:19,405 --> 00:16:21,362
- Have you had any pregnancies?
- No.

256
00:16:21,449 --> 00:16:22,563
- Heart murmurs?
- No.

257
00:16:22,658 --> 00:16:24,152
- High blood pressure?
- No.

258
00:16:24,243 --> 00:16:26,698
- Venereal diseases, uterine infections...
- No.

259
00:16:26,787 --> 00:16:30,737
- Thyroid, diabetes, cancer...
- No. Well, cancer, yes.

260
00:16:30,833 --> 00:16:32,576
- When?
- Now.

261
00:16:34,044 --> 00:16:37,329
- Well, before now.
- Then the answer is no.

262
00:16:38,215 --> 00:16:39,329
OK.

263
00:16:40,133 --> 00:16:42,885
Depressions, nervous breakdowns,
suicide attempts?

264
00:16:42,969 --> 00:16:44,048
No.

265
00:16:44,137 --> 00:16:45,299
- Do you smoke?
- No.

266
00:16:45,388 --> 00:16:48,009
- Ethanol?
- Oh, how, excuse me?

267
00:16:48,516 --> 00:16:49,761
Alcohol.

268
00:16:50,977 --> 00:16:54,559
- Oh. Ethanol. Yes, I drink wine.
- How much? Often?

269
00:16:54,647 --> 00:16:59,355
Just a glass with dinner, occasionally.
And maybe a Scotch every now and then.

270
00:16:59,443 --> 00:17:01,519
- Do you use substances?
- What kind?

271
00:17:01,612 --> 00:17:04,981
Marijuana, cocaine, crack, PCP,
ecstasy, amphetamines...

272
00:17:05,073 --> 00:17:06,188
No.

273
00:17:07,117 --> 00:17:09,608
- Oh, do you drink caffeinated drinks?
- Oh, yes.

274
00:17:09,703 --> 00:17:12,324
- For example?
- Coffee. A few cups a day.

275
00:17:12,998 --> 00:17:16,616
- OK. How many?
- From 2 to... to 6.

276
00:17:17,043 --> 00:17:18,786
But I think it's within the norm.

277
00:17:18,878 --> 00:17:21,036
He undergoes it regularly
to medical checks?

278
00:17:21,130 --> 00:17:24,962
Well, maybe not as often as I should.
But I felt good.

279
00:17:26,260 --> 00:17:30,044
- So the answer is?
- More or less every 3 or 5 years.

280
00:17:30,723 --> 00:17:33,130
Ah... How do you keep yourself in exercise?

281
00:17:34,059 --> 00:17:35,304
I walk.

282
00:17:37,688 --> 00:17:41,436
- Do you have sexual relations?
- Not currently.

283
00:17:42,859 --> 00:17:45,397
- Are you pre- or post-menopausal?
- Post.

284
00:17:45,737 --> 00:17:48,987
- When did your period stop?
- About 2 years ago.

285
00:17:50,325 --> 00:17:51,523
OK.

286
00:17:53,661 --> 00:17:55,950
When it manifested itself
your current ailment?

287
00:17:56,038 --> 00:17:57,663
- The first time?
- Yes.

288
00:17:59,250 --> 00:18:04,161
Let's see... about 4 months ago
I felt a strange pain in my abdomen,

289
00:18:04,254 --> 00:18:06,413
precisely to the stomach,
like some kind of cramp.

290
00:18:06,507 --> 00:18:08,416
- A strange pain?
- Like a cramp.

291
00:18:08,509 --> 00:18:11,628
- But wasn't it a cramp?
- More deaf and louder, I can't describe it.

292
00:18:12,637 --> 00:18:15,508
- Then what happened?
- Well, I, I don't know,

293
00:18:15,599 --> 00:18:20,260
I started to pay attention to my body.
I was teaching and felt a sharp pain.

294
00:18:20,353 --> 00:18:21,516
What kind of pain?

295
00:18:21,604 --> 00:18:23,312
Acute.

296
00:18:23,398 --> 00:18:24,892
And sudden.

297
00:18:24,982 --> 00:18:28,019
Then he left.
Or I felt tired,

298
00:18:28,110 --> 00:18:30,648
exhausted. I was working on a project...

299
00:18:30,738 --> 00:18:32,197
about John Donne...

300
00:18:32,281 --> 00:18:34,772
for <i>the Oxford Encyclopedia</i>
<i>of English literature.</i>

301
00:18:34,867 --> 00:18:38,152
It was a great honor for me,
but times were very tight.

302
00:18:38,245 --> 00:18:41,696
- Was he under pressure in practice?
- No more than usual.

303
00:18:41,790 --> 00:18:43,948
But that time I could hardly bear it.

304
00:18:44,084 --> 00:18:45,282
So...

305
00:18:46,628 --> 00:18:50,756
So, after handing in the work,
I went to my gynecologist.

306
00:18:50,840 --> 00:18:53,592
He visited me
and then he sent me to an internist,

307
00:18:53,676 --> 00:18:57,045
who sent me to Kelekian
because he suspected I had a tumor.

308
00:18:58,431 --> 00:19:00,388
- And that's all?
- Until now.

309
00:19:01,684 --> 00:19:03,842
Very interesting.

310
00:19:05,312 --> 00:19:07,637
I'd say we can start the visit.

311
00:19:07,731 --> 00:19:12,274
Just lie down and relax.

312
00:19:14,154 --> 00:19:15,613
It'll take a moment.

313
00:19:24,831 --> 00:19:26,658
Let me put this sheet on.

314
00:19:27,542 --> 00:19:28,740
Here.

315
00:19:30,336 --> 00:19:31,499
OK.

316
00:19:33,923 --> 00:19:36,758
Yes, just...

317
00:19:41,847 --> 00:19:43,970
Just put your feet up here.

318
00:19:44,433 --> 00:19:45,631
OK.

319
00:19:50,856 --> 00:19:52,054
OK.

320
00:19:55,110 --> 00:19:57,601
Ah, he could come... Yes.

321
00:19:58,112 --> 00:20:00,235
Very good. Perfect.

322
00:20:00,448 --> 00:20:02,275
Here we are.

323
00:20:07,038 --> 00:20:08,283
So, here we are.

324
00:20:10,416 --> 00:20:12,373
Oh, I have to go get Susie.

325
00:20:13,585 --> 00:20:17,417
The presence of a woman is required.
It's an absurd medical rule, but...

326
00:20:17,506 --> 00:20:19,913
Don't move. I'll be back now.

327
00:20:26,514 --> 00:20:29,052
Why didn't I give him 30?

328
00:20:35,189 --> 00:20:38,807
1 times 2, 2.2 times 2, 4.

329
00:20:38,901 --> 00:20:41,818
2 times 3, 6.

330
00:20:54,958 --> 00:20:57,081
"Death, do not be proud,

331
00:20:57,168 --> 00:21:00,537
"Even if some have called you
terrible and mighty,

332
00:21:01,089 --> 00:21:04,173
"Because you're not.

333
00:21:04,884 --> 00:21:09,462
"For all those you believe
to be able to overwhelm,

334
00:21:09,680 --> 00:21:12,350
"They do not die, miserable death,

335
00:21:12,850 --> 00:21:15,804
"You can't kill me either."

336
00:21:17,354 --> 00:21:19,561
What happened to Susie?

337
00:21:26,488 --> 00:21:29,109
"After the short sleep will pass

338
00:21:29,741 --> 00:21:31,780
"We awaken for eternity

339
00:21:32,494 --> 00:21:35,198
"And death will exist no more,"

340
00:21:35,705 --> 00:21:37,247
Comma.

341
00:21:38,041 --> 00:21:41,575
"Death you will die"

342
00:21:44,463 --> 00:21:46,171
OK. Everything's fine.

343
00:21:46,757 --> 00:21:50,292
- But why did you leave it like that?
- I came to look for you. Come on.

344
00:21:50,678 --> 00:21:52,220
We're ready, Professor Bearing.

345
00:21:52,304 --> 00:21:54,380
I put on my gloves.

346
00:21:59,019 --> 00:22:00,347
Very good.

347
00:22:02,272 --> 00:22:04,229
So... Let's bring this up.

348
00:22:04,566 --> 00:22:06,108
Relax.

349
00:22:10,613 --> 00:22:11,776
So.

350
00:22:11,864 --> 00:22:14,764
Don't you find it interesting, Susie,
that I studied with the teacher. Bearing?

351
00:22:14,784 --> 00:22:17,453
Yes. I would have liked it
study literature.

352
00:22:17,536 --> 00:22:19,280
I know nothing about poetry.

353
00:22:19,371 --> 00:22:21,494
The prof. He is held in high esteem on campus.

354
00:22:21,582 --> 00:22:23,989
His course benefited my resume.

355
00:22:24,084 --> 00:22:27,334
I talked about it
even during the medical interview.

356
00:22:28,088 --> 00:22:30,294
- But.
- What is it?

357
00:22:30,382 --> 00:22:32,173
What is it?

358
00:22:32,551 --> 00:22:35,587
I survived the Bearing course.
No problem.

359
00:22:35,679 --> 00:22:37,837
John Donne,
with all those metaphysical poets.

360
00:22:37,931 --> 00:22:41,975
Metaphysical intuition.
Women was a real puzzle.

361
00:22:42,310 --> 00:22:44,765
A bit like biochemistry.

362
00:22:45,146 --> 00:22:46,308
Here we are.

363
00:22:46,397 --> 00:22:49,600
One second. I'm almost done.

364
00:22:51,944 --> 00:22:54,067
That's it. Very good.

365
00:22:56,698 --> 00:22:58,074
Yes. I have to go.

366
00:22:58,617 --> 00:23:00,989
Get her feet off... Yes.

367
00:23:18,344 --> 00:23:19,803
Thank you.

368
00:23:22,473 --> 00:23:24,382
I turn it down.

369
00:23:49,916 --> 00:23:51,623
<i>It was...</i>

370
00:23:52,627 --> 00:23:53,871
a real horror.

371
00:23:55,588 --> 00:23:57,248
It was something...

372
00:24:02,594 --> 00:24:04,076
I can say with absolute certainty...

373
00:24:04,096 --> 00:24:06,587
than an 8 month cycle
of cancer therapy...

374
00:24:06,682 --> 00:24:10,382
It's a very educational thing.

375
00:24:10,852 --> 00:24:13,141
I'm learning to suffer.

376
00:24:15,190 --> 00:24:19,816
It's slightly unpleasant
do an electrocardiogram,

377
00:24:20,111 --> 00:24:24,607
but just do a colonoscopy
to erase it from memory.

378
00:24:26,200 --> 00:24:30,150
It was embarrassing to have to wear
a nightgown for the whole day.

379
00:24:30,704 --> 00:24:32,412
Actually, two.

380
00:24:32,831 --> 00:24:37,623
But compared to going bald,
it has every appearance of being a privilege.

381
00:24:38,837 --> 00:24:42,881
Of course, a gynecological examination
made by an ex-student...

382
00:24:43,133 --> 00:24:46,050
It was something...

383
00:24:46,177 --> 00:24:47,719
degrading.

384
00:24:47,846 --> 00:24:50,253
And I use that word deliberately.

385
00:24:51,349 --> 00:24:52,547
But...

386
00:24:52,975 --> 00:24:57,305
I would never have imagined
to end up in the abyss of humiliation.

387
00:25:14,704 --> 00:25:15,985
Oh, God.

388
00:25:17,582 --> 00:25:18,862
Please. God!

389
00:25:24,714 --> 00:25:25,994
Calm.

390
00:25:27,466 --> 00:25:28,629
Calm.

391
00:25:30,011 --> 00:25:31,469
Oh, oh, God.

392
00:25:42,481 --> 00:25:44,023
There's nothing left.

393
00:25:46,193 --> 00:25:49,028
I haven't eaten for two days.

394
00:25:49,571 --> 00:25:52,192
What the hell do I vomit?

395
00:26:03,376 --> 00:26:07,539
You may have noticed that, over time, mine
vocabulary has become more colorful.

396
00:26:10,340 --> 00:26:12,962
All I have to do is puke my brains out.

397
00:26:19,766 --> 00:26:22,802
Oh. Vomiting it would really mean...

398
00:26:25,980 --> 00:26:28,554
a serious loss
for the discipline I represent.

399
00:26:28,983 --> 00:26:33,692
Although many colleagues
they would feel relieved.

400
00:26:35,156 --> 00:26:37,113
And I don't say this in a polemical way.

401
00:26:38,993 --> 00:26:41,234
Only with full knowledge of the facts.

402
00:26:50,545 --> 00:26:52,170
False alarm.

403
00:26:58,720 --> 00:27:03,049
On the other hand, if the news got out
that Bearing threw up her brains,

404
00:27:03,766 --> 00:27:07,265
my colleagues, many of whom,
by the way, they are my former students,

405
00:27:07,728 --> 00:27:10,682
they would argue
to have my place.

406
00:27:11,357 --> 00:27:13,598
Then their consciences would be inflamed.

407
00:27:13,692 --> 00:27:17,191
So, to honor my memory,
they would put together a collection...

408
00:27:17,487 --> 00:27:19,480
of their essays on John Donne.

409
00:27:20,907 --> 00:27:24,157
The volume would begin
with a heartfelt introduction...

410
00:27:24,244 --> 00:27:26,817
on my best qualities.

411
00:27:26,913 --> 00:27:30,364
A few lines, but heartfelt.

412
00:27:32,085 --> 00:27:34,124
Published post-mortem.

413
00:27:36,964 --> 00:27:40,463
And now, look.

414
00:27:40,926 --> 00:27:43,252
The bell will ring.

415
00:27:46,640 --> 00:27:49,309
<i>How do you do, Miss Bearing? Are you nauseous?</i>

416
00:27:49,476 --> 00:27:53,094
- Ah, yes.
<i>- OK, I'll be with you in a moment.</i>

417
00:27:54,231 --> 00:27:58,359
The nurse will measure the emesis...

418
00:27:58,777 --> 00:28:02,311
and then I will record it on the table
of my inputs and emissions.

419
00:28:02,989 --> 00:28:05,028
That goes among the emissions.

420
00:28:15,000 --> 00:28:17,159
They are about 300 centilitres.

421
00:28:18,295 --> 00:28:19,623
That much?

422
00:28:21,256 --> 00:28:23,296
I thought my eyes were popping out too.

423
00:28:25,302 --> 00:28:27,425
Yes. There are 300 of them.

424
00:28:27,929 --> 00:28:29,305
He guessed right.

425
00:28:31,433 --> 00:28:32,713
That's it.

426
00:28:33,309 --> 00:28:36,595
If you have stomach cramps,
I can bring you some jam.

427
00:28:36,688 --> 00:28:38,312
No, thank you.

428
00:28:41,192 --> 00:28:45,024
- Is she okay here, all alone?
- Yes.

429
00:28:45,613 --> 00:28:48,282
Doesn't get many visitors, huh?

430
00:28:48,490 --> 00:28:49,901
None,

431
00:28:50,743 --> 00:28:52,153
to be precise.

432
00:28:52,286 --> 00:28:54,077
I was inappropriate.

433
00:28:54,788 --> 00:28:57,824
If there is anyone who wants to warn,
I can do it.

434
00:28:58,250 --> 00:29:01,832
It's not necessary, thanks.
I don't want visitors.

435
00:29:02,629 --> 00:29:03,708
Agree.

436
00:29:03,797 --> 00:29:04,911
Let's do this.

437
00:29:05,006 --> 00:29:08,920
I'll check in every now and then
to see how it's going.

438
00:29:09,594 --> 00:29:13,543
Well, I hope.
But for whatever, you play.

439
00:29:13,723 --> 00:29:15,265
Thank you.

440
00:29:17,309 --> 00:29:18,590
OK.

441
00:29:23,774 --> 00:29:25,482
Call, do you understand?

442
00:30:03,812 --> 00:30:05,271
<i>Don't forget...</i>

443
00:30:05,355 --> 00:30:08,522
<i>that you are witnesses of what happens to me...</i>

444
00:30:08,608 --> 00:30:12,819
<i>in this strange role as a patient
treated with experimental chemotherapy...</i>

445
00:30:12,904 --> 00:30:16,023
<i>for metastatic ovarian cancer
in an advanced stage.</i>

446
00:30:18,034 --> 00:30:21,449
<i>But as a scholar,
I have the habit and also the obligation...</i>

447
00:30:21,537 --> 00:30:24,870
<i>to document
what usually happens...</i>

448
00:30:24,957 --> 00:30:27,437
<i>in the interregnum that exists
between one climax and another.</i>

449
00:30:29,002 --> 00:30:32,122
<i>In reality this is what happens.</i>

450
00:30:33,882 --> 00:30:36,420
<i>You can't imagine...</i>

451
00:30:36,635 --> 00:30:40,679
<i>how time is completely still.</i>

452
00:30:41,556 --> 00:30:43,430
<i>Hanging.</i>

453
00:30:44,726 --> 00:30:46,599
<i>Weighs.</i>

454
00:30:47,395 --> 00:30:49,968
<i>And yet there is so little.</i>

455
00:30:50,731 --> 00:30:53,401
<i>It's so slow,</i>

456
00:30:54,360 --> 00:30:57,064
<i>and yet it is so scarce.</i>

457
00:30:59,156 --> 00:31:02,856
<i>If I were to write this scene,
it would last 15 minutes.</i>

458
00:31:02,951 --> 00:31:06,700
<i>I would lie here and you would sit there.</i>

459
00:31:12,168 --> 00:31:13,663
Where is the problem?

460
00:31:15,130 --> 00:31:17,917
"Essentiality is the soul of the intellect."

461
00:31:19,717 --> 00:31:21,128
But...

462
00:31:21,219 --> 00:31:25,927
if you find that these 8 months are for you
of care can be tedious,

463
00:31:26,849 --> 00:31:29,719
think about what it should be like
be in my shoes.

464
00:31:33,480 --> 00:31:35,272
Better change the subject.

465
00:31:35,858 --> 00:31:38,265
Let's say today is Friday morning.

466
00:31:39,152 --> 00:31:42,070
In jargon they are called "visit tours".

467
00:31:43,573 --> 00:31:44,948
Action!

468
00:31:47,744 --> 00:31:50,579
- Miss Bearing.
- Dr. Kelekian.

469
00:31:50,663 --> 00:31:52,023
Professor, how are you feeling today?

470
00:31:52,165 --> 00:31:54,241
- Well.
- Great news.

471
00:31:54,667 --> 00:31:57,205
Late detection,
the stage at admission is the fourth.

472
00:31:57,295 --> 00:32:00,082
Hexamethophosphate with Vinplatin
to strengthen.

473
00:32:00,172 --> 00:32:04,300
Hex at 300 milligrams per square meter,
Vin at 100.

474
00:32:04,510 --> 00:32:07,083
Today is cycle number 4, third day.

475
00:32:07,179 --> 00:32:09,385
All cycles are full dosage.

476
00:32:09,556 --> 00:32:12,261
The primary site is here,
behind the left ovary.

477
00:32:12,350 --> 00:32:14,924
Suspected metastases
in the peritoneal cavity,

478
00:32:15,020 --> 00:32:16,562
especially in this area.

479
00:32:16,646 --> 00:32:19,766
Full lymphatic involvement.
During the exploratory intervention,

480
00:32:19,858 --> 00:32:21,839
A significant portion was removed
of the tumor,

481
00:32:21,859 --> 00:32:24,860
especially in this area here.
Left, right ovary

482
00:32:24,946 --> 00:32:27,069
Fallopian tubes, uterus, all removed.

483
00:32:27,907 --> 00:32:29,513
Ah, obvious shrinkage
of the primary tumor.

484
00:32:29,533 --> 00:32:32,071
It was not documented
no reduction in metastases.

485
00:32:32,161 --> 00:32:35,696
Primary mass clearly palpable
during the pelvic examination,

486
00:32:36,582 --> 00:32:38,290
throughout this whole part here.

487
00:32:38,584 --> 00:32:41,834
Excellent command of details. OK.

488
00:32:42,170 --> 00:32:43,997
Problems due to Esa and Vin?

489
00:32:44,089 --> 00:32:46,627
- Myelosuppression...
- it is obvious that there is myelosuppression,

490
00:32:46,716 --> 00:32:48,175
given the decrease in blood cells.

491
00:32:48,260 --> 00:32:51,593
With this combination of agents,
nephrotoxicity will soon occur.

492
00:32:52,180 --> 00:32:54,303
Anyone else?

493
00:32:56,309 --> 00:32:57,851
Side effects?

494
00:32:58,352 --> 00:33:00,262
Nausea, vomiting?

495
00:33:00,354 --> 00:33:02,181
-Jason?
- Routines.

496
00:33:02,273 --> 00:33:03,981
- Pain when urinating?
- Routines.

497
00:33:04,066 --> 00:33:06,272
- Psychological depression?
- Absent.

498
00:33:06,360 --> 00:33:07,938
Oh, that's all?

499
00:33:08,028 --> 00:33:10,235
Other problems with ESA and Vin?

500
00:33:12,199 --> 00:33:13,313
Courage.

501
00:33:15,160 --> 00:33:17,199
- Mouth sores?
- Not yet.

502
00:33:18,371 --> 00:33:20,115
- Skin rashes?
- No.

503
00:33:21,124 --> 00:33:23,330
Why do we waste time, in your opinion?

504
00:33:23,418 --> 00:33:25,576
I have no idea, Dr. Kelekian.

505
00:33:26,504 --> 00:33:28,627
Use your eyes.

506
00:33:32,593 --> 00:33:34,301
Good God!

507
00:33:34,762 --> 00:33:36,137
He no longer has hair.

508
00:33:36,222 --> 00:33:39,306
Oh, please! You can see that!

509
00:33:39,433 --> 00:33:40,761
Jason?

510
00:33:42,102 --> 00:33:44,854
After the first cycle of treatment,
hair away.

511
00:33:44,938 --> 00:33:48,058
It's much better. Miss Bearing,

512
00:33:48,900 --> 00:33:50,276
maximum dosage.

513
00:33:54,406 --> 00:33:58,320
Well. Magnificent. Continue to drink liquids.

514
00:34:06,125 --> 00:34:08,794
- Jason, the formalities. Let's continue.
- Oh, right.

515
00:34:09,378 --> 00:34:12,498
Thank you, teacher,
She was very collaborative.

516
00:34:17,886 --> 00:34:20,128
Wasn't that a great scene?

517
00:34:21,598 --> 00:34:25,643
So full of servility, of hierarchies.

518
00:34:26,186 --> 00:34:29,637
Free display, arrogance,
sublimated rivalries.

519
00:34:29,731 --> 00:34:33,396
I feel completely at ease,
It's like a graduate seminar.

520
00:34:34,485 --> 00:34:36,857
Except there is a fundamental difference.

521
00:34:37,029 --> 00:34:40,528
During visits,
they read me instead of a book.

522
00:34:40,616 --> 00:34:42,739
I used to teach others.

523
00:34:42,827 --> 00:34:44,570
Now I'm being taught.

524
00:34:45,871 --> 00:34:49,489
It's much easier,
I just have to stay still and play sick.

525
00:34:50,876 --> 00:34:53,449
Jason was remarkable, wasn't he?

526
00:34:54,421 --> 00:34:56,330
He is a former student of mine.

527
00:34:59,175 --> 00:35:02,876
Nephrotoxicity, kidney poisoning,
myelosuppression.

528
00:35:03,054 --> 00:35:04,714
They are medical terms.

529
00:35:04,806 --> 00:35:09,302
I looked for them, I've always had the habit
to treat words with respect.

530
00:35:11,103 --> 00:35:13,773
I remember the moment.

531
00:35:14,607 --> 00:35:16,398
Exactly the time,

532
00:35:16,483 --> 00:35:18,642
the day and date...

533
00:35:19,361 --> 00:35:22,279
where words became my work.

534
00:35:23,073 --> 00:35:24,982
This is my favourite.

535
00:35:27,202 --> 00:35:29,241
Read another one.

536
00:35:30,664 --> 00:35:32,703
I think I'll read...

537
00:35:32,832 --> 00:35:35,370
<i>The story of the sleeping bunnies.</i>

538
00:35:40,089 --> 00:35:42,129
There are bunnies on the cover.

539
00:35:50,432 --> 00:35:53,801
<i>"Story of the sleeping bunnies...</i>

540
00:35:53,894 --> 00:35:57,179
"by Beatix Potter."

541
00:36:02,527 --> 00:36:07,355
“There is a saying that eating too much lettuce
has an effect... effect... tt...

542
00:36:08,575 --> 00:36:13,035
"It is said that eating too much lettuce...

543
00:36:13,329 --> 00:36:17,279
"has an effect so... sop... sopo..."

544
00:36:18,793 --> 00:36:20,500
What word is this?

545
00:36:21,086 --> 00:36:22,794
Try to break it down.

546
00:36:29,177 --> 00:36:32,178
I know... I po-re-fero.

547
00:36:32,264 --> 00:36:33,509
What does it mean?

548
00:36:33,598 --> 00:36:36,136
Soporific means that it causes sleep.

549
00:36:38,103 --> 00:36:40,854
- Causes sleep...
- It puts you to sleep.

550
00:36:42,607 --> 00:36:47,315
"So-po-ri-fero" then means
"that puts you to sleep".

551
00:36:49,530 --> 00:36:51,902
<i>Exactly. Now, use it in a sentence.</i>

552
00:36:52,616 --> 00:36:55,819
<i>What has an effect
soporific on you?</i>

553
00:36:56,370 --> 00:36:59,406
<i>What has an effect
soporific on me?</i>

554
00:37:00,082 --> 00:37:01,790
<i>What makes you fall asleep?</i>

555
00:37:05,754 --> 00:37:06,952
<i>Nothing.</i>

556
00:37:08,715 --> 00:37:10,624
Exactly.

557
00:37:12,468 --> 00:37:13,963
And what about you?

558
00:37:14,929 --> 00:37:17,087
What has a soporific effect on me?

559
00:37:17,723 --> 00:37:19,218
Let me think.

560
00:37:19,433 --> 00:37:22,636
The boring conversations,
especially, after dinner.

561
00:37:22,853 --> 00:37:26,388
Me too. The boring conversations.

562
00:37:26,523 --> 00:37:30,355
Well, good. Continues.

563
00:37:33,405 --> 00:37:37,449
“There is a saying that eating too much lettuce
have an effect...

564
00:37:37,534 --> 00:37:39,692
"soporific."

565
00:37:41,663 --> 00:37:43,739
The bunnies in the picture are sleeping.

566
00:37:43,832 --> 00:37:47,331
They sleep just like you said,
for the so-pori-ferous effect.

567
00:37:50,129 --> 00:37:53,296
So the cover confirmed it
the meaning of words,

568
00:37:53,382 --> 00:37:55,541
as he had explained them.

569
00:37:56,510 --> 00:37:59,297
At the time, it seemed like magic to me.

570
00:38:01,014 --> 00:38:02,390
So...

571
00:38:02,474 --> 00:38:05,843
imagine the effect
that Donne's words had on me.

572
00:38:06,645 --> 00:38:09,266
Reasoning, concatenation,

573
00:38:09,356 --> 00:38:12,890
corrugation, prevarication.

574
00:38:14,402 --> 00:38:17,189
Medical terms are less evocative.

575
00:38:19,032 --> 00:38:20,194
But...

576
00:38:20,450 --> 00:38:25,407
I still want to know what they're referring to,
the doctors, when they anatomize me.

577
00:38:26,038 --> 00:38:29,870
My only defense is to be able to acquire
their vocabulary.

578
00:38:39,926 --> 00:38:43,758
- Fever and neutropenia.
- When did it start?

579
00:38:44,222 --> 00:38:49,133
I was at home and reading.
I felt terrible. I was cold.

580
00:38:50,687 --> 00:38:52,726
Fever and neutropenia. Will you cure me?

581
00:38:52,814 --> 00:38:55,020
Of course we will treat her.
Who accompanied her here?

582
00:38:55,107 --> 00:38:56,388
I took a taxi.

583
00:38:58,736 --> 00:39:00,195
Can he walk?

584
00:39:03,657 --> 00:39:05,282
Sit here for a moment.

585
00:39:05,367 --> 00:39:09,910
I'm going to go find Jason.
He's on guard tonight. I'll give her something.

586
00:39:09,997 --> 00:39:11,954
It's lucky that I'm here tonight.

587
00:39:12,749 --> 00:39:15,620
I'll take her to bed soon.

588
00:39:18,713 --> 00:39:22,497
I'll bring you some fruit juice
with lots of ice, OK?

589
00:39:23,009 --> 00:39:26,425
The lights.
I left all the lights on at home.

590
00:39:26,512 --> 00:39:29,050
I'll send someone to put them out.

591
00:39:42,110 --> 00:39:44,150
Professor Bearing, how do you feel?

592
00:39:44,654 --> 00:39:46,149
My teeth are chattering.

593
00:39:46,239 --> 00:39:51,115
- Vital functions?
- Fever 38, pulse 120, breathing 36.

594
00:39:51,369 --> 00:39:53,492
Fever and neutropenia.
It's a cold-hot swing.

595
00:39:54,414 --> 00:39:58,826
Blood and urine tests, immediately.
Hospitalize her, prepare her for isolation.

596
00:39:58,918 --> 00:40:02,666
Let's start with acetominophen.
Vital functions every 4 hours.

597
00:40:08,177 --> 00:40:12,340
Jason, talk to Kelekian
to decrease the dose for the next cycle.

598
00:40:12,431 --> 00:40:13,711
This is too strong for her.

599
00:40:13,807 --> 00:40:16,049
What? Do you want to joke?
He's strong, he can bear it.

600
00:40:16,143 --> 00:40:19,642
Full dose.
If the results come in, wake me up.

601
00:40:48,673 --> 00:40:50,547
Good morning, Miss Bearing.

602
00:40:50,634 --> 00:40:52,009
Full dose?

603
00:40:52,427 --> 00:40:55,000
A clear progress. Everything OK?

604
00:40:56,097 --> 00:40:57,176
Yes.

605
00:40:57,849 --> 00:40:59,224
It's going great.

606
00:40:59,392 --> 00:41:03,970
The isolation will last only 2 days.
You think of it as a kind of vacation.

607
00:41:15,240 --> 00:41:17,814
-Jason.
- What?

608
00:41:26,376 --> 00:41:28,333
Oh, yes. I'm in isolation.

609
00:41:30,046 --> 00:41:32,252
I'm isolated.

610
00:41:33,091 --> 00:41:36,673
For once
I can use a term literally.

611
00:41:37,011 --> 00:41:41,756
Chemotherapy to eradicate the tumor,

612
00:41:41,849 --> 00:41:45,763
I feel it is slowly eradicating
even my immune system.

613
00:41:46,895 --> 00:41:49,267
In my current condition,

614
00:41:49,648 --> 00:41:53,728
every living organism is a threat
for my health.

615
00:41:56,321 --> 00:41:58,859
With everything I have to do.

616
00:41:59,199 --> 00:42:02,235
Especially if it is
of medical specialists.

617
00:42:02,702 --> 00:42:06,746
To check the tables for a second,
I have to waste half an hour for precautions.

618
00:42:08,916 --> 00:42:13,377
Oh. 5, 7, 11,250 twice. OK.

619
00:42:19,802 --> 00:42:21,960
How are you feeling today, teacher?

620
00:42:22,054 --> 00:42:26,098
Well, I just have a few shivers
every now and then.

621
00:42:26,558 --> 00:42:29,428
He has an intravenous delivery
continue, don't worry.

622
00:42:29,853 --> 00:42:32,474
I have to go. Keep drinking fluids, OK?

623
00:42:44,575 --> 00:42:48,655
The reason I'm in solitary confinement
It's not because I have cancer.

624
00:42:49,705 --> 00:42:51,116
Because...

625
00:42:51,206 --> 00:42:54,789
I have a tumor
about the size of a grapefruit.

626
00:42:55,586 --> 00:42:56,830
No.

627
00:42:58,296 --> 00:43:00,752
I'm in isolation...

628
00:43:00,840 --> 00:43:05,052
because a team of researchers
He's curing my cancer.

629
00:43:07,889 --> 00:43:11,969
And it is the treatment that puts us in danger
my health.

630
00:43:13,644 --> 00:43:15,851
And this is the paradox.

631
00:43:17,231 --> 00:43:19,900
John Donne would have dabbled in it.

632
00:43:22,528 --> 00:43:26,821
I'd enjoy it too,
if he had written a poem on it.

633
00:43:29,284 --> 00:43:33,364
To my students
it would create a lot of confusion,

634
00:43:34,331 --> 00:43:38,791
because the paradox is too difficult
to understand.

635
00:43:43,965 --> 00:43:47,630
"imagine it as a puzzle",

636
00:43:47,885 --> 00:43:51,171
I would tell them, "An intellectual game."

637
00:43:56,977 --> 00:44:00,013
Or I would have told them...

638
00:44:01,815 --> 00:44:03,724
that it was a game.

639
00:44:06,736 --> 00:44:09,108
But it isn't.

640
00:44:22,376 --> 00:44:25,710
"Through death
everything else makes us immortal

641
00:44:27,381 --> 00:44:31,592
"If even the lascivious satyrs
and the envious snakes

642
00:44:31,677 --> 00:44:33,799
"They cannot be damned

643
00:44:33,887 --> 00:44:36,010
"So why should I be?

644
00:44:36,098 --> 00:44:40,225
"Because intent or reason
that are kept in me

645
00:44:40,310 --> 00:44:44,058
“They should make up for my own sins
more hateful?

646
00:44:44,647 --> 00:44:47,316
"And because the mercy of God,

647
00:44:47,400 --> 00:44:51,065
"In its inflexible naturalness,
should it be a threat to him?

648
00:44:53,322 --> 00:44:57,699
"But who am I
to dare to argue with you?

649
00:44:59,912 --> 00:45:05,119
"Oh, God! Oh, of your precious blood
and my tears

650
00:45:06,084 --> 00:45:08,077
"Increase the sacred river L�te

651
00:45:08,170 --> 00:45:11,087
"And drown in it without delay
the black memory of my sins.

652
00:45:12,299 --> 00:45:16,628
"If you will remember them,
they will demand death.

653
00:45:16,719 --> 00:45:20,551
"I think there will be mercy,
if you can forget them."

654
00:45:23,267 --> 00:45:27,431
Usually, in prayer,
one implores "Remember me, Lord."

655
00:45:27,521 --> 00:45:29,712
True believers ask the Lord
to remember them,

656
00:45:29,732 --> 00:45:33,397
while the speaker of this sonnet
asks God to forget.

657
00:45:33,485 --> 00:45:37,352
We want to correct the speaker.

658
00:45:38,949 --> 00:45:41,274
To remind him
how certain salvation is.

659
00:45:41,368 --> 00:45:43,574
But it's too late,
the poetic encounter is over...

660
00:45:43,662 --> 00:45:45,654
and we are left alone
with our consciences.

661
00:45:45,747 --> 00:45:49,447
- Have we perhaps beaten Donne?
<i>- Miss Bearing?</i>

662
00:45:50,668 --> 00:45:55,081
Or are we the ones who have been beaten?

663
00:45:58,217 --> 00:45:59,592
Yes, what is it?

664
00:45:59,677 --> 00:46:02,547
They are already waiting for you to take an exam.
Jason just called.

665
00:46:02,638 --> 00:46:04,097
They'll do another ultrasound.

666
00:46:04,181 --> 00:46:06,174
They are worried
for intestinal obstruction.

667
00:46:06,266 --> 00:46:09,433
- No, not now.
- I'm sorry, they want to do it now.

668
00:46:10,228 --> 00:46:12,268
I can't come. Don't insist.

669
00:46:12,355 --> 00:46:14,811
They have to do it now. I also have the chair.

670
00:46:16,109 --> 00:46:18,600
No. It can't be now. I...

671
00:46:18,695 --> 00:46:21,565
I have another plan.

672
00:46:21,656 --> 00:46:23,930
- Furthermore, I have had countless ultrasounds.
- I know, you're absolutely right.

673
00:46:23,950 --> 00:46:26,357
But they need another one now.

674
00:46:26,452 --> 00:46:30,117
It's not an unpleasant exam.
It won't take long. Why isn't he coming?

675
00:46:30,206 --> 00:46:32,827
I already told her I don't want to do it now.

676
00:47:10,369 --> 00:47:11,780
Name?

677
00:47:12,663 --> 00:47:15,200
B-E-A-R-l-N-G.

678
00:47:15,290 --> 00:47:16,571
Kelekian.

679
00:47:17,542 --> 00:47:19,250
Excuse me for a minute.

680
00:47:21,046 --> 00:47:23,038
- Is it time for your break?
- Exact.

681
00:47:24,716 --> 00:47:26,376
Just take it easy.

682
00:47:41,899 --> 00:47:45,564
"This is the last scene
of my show

683
00:47:47,279 --> 00:47:48,773
"This

684
00:47:48,864 --> 00:47:53,241
"It's what heaven ordained it to be
the last mile of my pilgrimage

685
00:47:54,911 --> 00:47:57,153
"And my route

686
00:47:57,372 --> 00:48:01,832
"Idly but quickly traveled

687
00:48:02,376 --> 00:48:05,496
"Until we get to this last step

688
00:48:07,757 --> 00:48:10,876
"The last inch of my run

689
00:48:11,302 --> 00:48:14,587
"The last moment of my minute

690
00:48:15,472 --> 00:48:17,299
"And greedy death

691
00:48:17,391 --> 00:48:22,515
"It will instantly separate my body
from my soul"

692
00:48:25,774 --> 00:48:27,600
John Donne,

693
00:48:28,068 --> 00:48:30,274
1609.

694
00:48:32,864 --> 00:48:36,315
I have always felt a deep connection
with this poem.

695
00:48:38,286 --> 00:48:40,325
Of course, an abstract connection.

696
00:48:43,165 --> 00:48:45,454
But now I find the image...

697
00:48:45,918 --> 00:48:48,325
of the last moment of my minute...

698
00:48:49,463 --> 00:48:51,954
a little too much, how can I put it,

699
00:48:52,049 --> 00:48:53,329
incisive.

700
00:48:56,303 --> 00:48:59,921
It's not to complain,
but the truth is that I'm starting to feel bad.

701
00:49:00,557 --> 00:49:04,803
Very, very bad.
In fact, I would say definitely bad.

702
00:49:08,356 --> 00:49:13,432
I have always been...

703
00:49:14,695 --> 00:49:16,403
a determined woman.

704
00:49:17,197 --> 00:49:18,775
Resolute.

705
00:49:20,284 --> 00:49:23,284
Some might even say too much.

706
00:49:25,330 --> 00:49:27,655
Therefore, as a logical consequence,

707
00:49:28,375 --> 00:49:31,909
Now I'm honoring myself
in dealing with the disease.

708
00:49:34,714 --> 00:49:38,083
I managed to
survive 8 cycles...

709
00:49:38,176 --> 00:49:41,342
of Hexamethophosphacil and Vinplatin.

710
00:49:41,429 --> 00:49:45,640
And all of this, ladies and gentlemen,
full dose.

711
00:49:46,725 --> 00:49:50,177
I think I broke the record.

712
00:49:51,855 --> 00:49:55,141
I've become something of a celebrity.

713
00:49:56,610 --> 00:50:01,355
Kelekian and Jason
they are simply thrilled.

714
00:50:02,949 --> 00:50:04,740
I believe...

715
00:50:05,034 --> 00:50:09,079
that they glimpse that soon
they too will become celebrities,

716
00:50:09,247 --> 00:50:11,489
thanks to the scientific article...

717
00:50:11,582 --> 00:50:14,073
who will no doubt write about me.

718
00:50:18,130 --> 00:50:20,289
But maybe I'm deluding myself.

719
00:50:20,883 --> 00:50:23,421
That article won't be about me,

720
00:50:23,802 --> 00:50:26,293
but certainly on my ovaries...

721
00:50:27,014 --> 00:50:31,675
and on my peritoneal cavity,

722
00:50:31,977 --> 00:50:36,188
which, despite all their efforts,
It is infested with cancer.

723
00:50:40,944 --> 00:50:44,063
I'm more than convinced
that now you think of me...

724
00:50:44,780 --> 00:50:49,489
as if I were the test tube of a sample,

725
00:50:49,869 --> 00:50:52,075
or the cover of a book,

726
00:50:53,080 --> 00:50:55,535
or that little white piece of paper...

727
00:50:55,708 --> 00:50:58,459
smeared with black marks.

728
00:51:04,591 --> 00:51:07,545
I think my next verse
I will read like this:

729
00:51:09,471 --> 00:51:11,178
"Oh, it's such a relief...

730
00:51:11,264 --> 00:51:15,131
"Go back to my room
after taking those infernal tests."

731
00:51:16,727 --> 00:51:18,803
But that would be a lie.

732
00:51:20,356 --> 00:51:24,733
The real relief, in my opinion,
it would be to be a cheer-leader,

733
00:51:24,818 --> 00:51:28,686
that goes to Daytona Beach
to spend the summer holidays.

734
00:51:31,074 --> 00:51:34,111
Go back to my room
after those infernal exams,

735
00:51:34,202 --> 00:51:36,325
It's just the thing that happens next.

736
00:51:39,749 --> 00:51:41,160
Oh, God.

737
00:51:43,586 --> 00:51:46,753
It's such a relief to be back
in this damned room...

738
00:51:47,215 --> 00:51:50,630
after those damned exams.

739
00:51:59,018 --> 00:52:02,932
Professor Bearing?
I take a look at his file.

740
00:52:07,984 --> 00:52:09,562
450.

741
00:52:10,195 --> 00:52:11,938
6-5.

742
00:52:12,656 --> 00:52:15,989
OK. How do you feel today?

743
00:52:16,159 --> 00:52:19,195
- Well.
- Magnificent. Very good.

744
00:52:20,788 --> 00:52:22,496
How are my liquids?

745
00:52:22,582 --> 00:52:26,911
Discreet. The kidneys are not yet involved
despite the Esa and the Vin.

746
00:52:27,086 --> 00:52:30,205
How will you know
when will the kidneys be involved?

747
00:52:30,297 --> 00:52:33,500
- Many inputs, few emissions.
- Is it that simple?

748
00:52:34,468 --> 00:52:35,666
Well, I'd say no.

749
00:52:35,844 --> 00:52:39,213
A compromised kidney
He has very complicated reactions.

750
00:52:39,848 --> 00:52:42,220
- I made it easier for you.
- Thank you.

751
00:52:42,350 --> 00:52:44,972
- It's our duty.
- Tact with the sick.

752
00:52:45,061 --> 00:52:48,181
You think we have to follow
even a course on the topic.

753
00:52:48,273 --> 00:52:52,270
- All wasted time for us researchers.
- I imagine so.

754
00:52:53,361 --> 00:52:54,641
Jason?

755
00:52:54,820 --> 00:52:57,490
- What was he telling me?
- When?

756
00:53:00,868 --> 00:53:02,113
It does not matter.

757
00:53:03,162 --> 00:53:06,198
Do you often feel confused,

758
00:53:06,331 --> 00:53:08,657
- or have memory lapses?
- No.

759
00:53:08,959 --> 00:53:10,287
- Is it safe?
- Yes.

760
00:53:11,211 --> 00:53:12,456
OK.

761
00:53:12,963 --> 00:53:16,213
Well, you see, I was wondering...

762
00:53:17,634 --> 00:53:19,342
why cancer?

763
00:53:19,427 --> 00:53:20,838
Why cancer?

764
00:53:21,471 --> 00:53:23,759
Yes. Why not open heart surgery?

765
00:53:24,390 --> 00:53:26,264
Oh, well, yeah.

766
00:53:27,852 --> 00:53:29,346
So why not hydraulics,

767
00:53:29,478 --> 00:53:32,230
or whatever,
to let surgeons know...

768
00:53:32,314 --> 00:53:34,271
What is <i>Homo Sapiens capable of?</i>

769
00:53:34,358 --> 00:53:37,774
They are choices.
I've always wanted to deal with cancer.

770
00:53:38,654 --> 00:53:41,690
Ah. That is... Of course, cancer is...

771
00:53:43,867 --> 00:53:45,147
Does that mean terrible?

772
00:53:45,243 --> 00:53:46,572
Yes.

773
00:53:46,661 --> 00:53:49,781
It's monstrous. It's unpredictable.

774
00:53:49,873 --> 00:53:52,198
The mechanisms of intercellular regulation,

775
00:53:52,292 --> 00:53:55,043
especially for proliferation
and differentiation,

776
00:53:55,128 --> 00:53:59,421
- malignant neoplasm does not follow them.
- Neoplasm. Cancer cells.

777
00:53:59,507 --> 00:54:01,167
Yes. Yes, exactly.

778
00:54:01,425 --> 00:54:04,343
By culturing normal tissue cells
in the laboratory,

779
00:54:04,428 --> 00:54:07,762
these reproduce quite a bit
to form a confluent monolayer...

780
00:54:07,848 --> 00:54:10,968
and then they divide 20 or 50 times,
but eventually they stop.

781
00:54:11,059 --> 00:54:14,843
While neoplastic cells
they never stop.

782
00:54:15,772 --> 00:54:18,939
No type of contact inhibition,
they just multiply.

783
00:54:19,025 --> 00:54:21,267
They multiply
reproducing endlessly.

784
00:54:22,153 --> 00:54:24,193
They have a name, do you know what it is?

785
00:54:24,280 --> 00:54:27,198
- No, which one?
- Immortality in culture.

786
00:54:27,992 --> 00:54:29,901
Oh. The title sounds like a symposium.

787
00:54:29,994 --> 00:54:32,948
But it's an error of judgment,
in a molecular sense.

788
00:54:33,664 --> 00:54:34,945
I wonder why.

789
00:54:35,041 --> 00:54:38,990
Even at the protistic level, the normal
interactions between cell and cell...

790
00:54:39,086 --> 00:54:42,289
they are so subtle they take your breath away.

791
00:54:42,381 --> 00:54:44,706
It's incredible. Perfect.

792
00:54:45,467 --> 00:54:48,384
What happens with neoplastic cells?
The best minds,

793
00:54:48,470 --> 00:54:50,344
funds, laboratories...

794
00:54:51,389 --> 00:54:53,263
Nobody gets over it.

795
00:54:53,516 --> 00:54:56,186
- And what about you?
- I?

796
00:54:56,811 --> 00:54:58,887
Oh, I have some ideas in mind.

797
00:54:58,980 --> 00:55:02,929
I'll see when I have my own laboratory,
if he will survive specialization.

798
00:55:03,860 --> 00:55:05,567
The chapter with humans.

799
00:55:05,653 --> 00:55:08,108
It's an obligatory stop
for all the best researchers.

800
00:55:08,197 --> 00:55:10,949
They want to get used to it
to converse brilliantly with clinicians,

801
00:55:11,033 --> 00:55:13,702
as if researchers
were in some way an impediment.

802
00:55:13,786 --> 00:55:17,783
Clinicians are nothing but gods
troglodytes! Some nonsense needs to be eliminated.

803
00:55:17,873 --> 00:55:19,746
She's sorry when it happens to her,

804
00:55:24,337 --> 00:55:26,544
to lose a patient?

805
00:55:27,757 --> 00:55:30,426
Everyone asks it. Especially women.

806
00:55:30,510 --> 00:55:32,253
And who answers?

807
00:55:32,470 --> 00:55:34,925
- Obviously, yes.
- Do they believe you?

808
00:55:35,014 --> 00:55:37,766
- Someone.
- Someone. Yes, of course.

809
00:55:40,519 --> 00:55:43,057
And how he behaves
in front of a patient...

810
00:55:43,522 --> 00:55:46,143
apprehensive, scared?

811
00:55:46,233 --> 00:55:47,608
From whom, excuse me?

812
00:55:51,196 --> 00:55:52,821
Oh, just...

813
00:55:54,241 --> 00:55:55,699
It doesn't matter.

814
00:55:57,494 --> 00:56:00,067
Tell me,
Who is the president of the United States?

815
00:56:00,163 --> 00:56:02,452
I am fine. Believe me, everything is fine.

816
00:56:02,540 --> 00:56:05,458
- Are you sure? I can prescribe a test for you.
- No.

817
00:56:07,753 --> 00:56:10,244
I'm fine. I'm just a little tired.

818
00:56:10,756 --> 00:56:12,001
OK.

819
00:56:12,717 --> 00:56:13,831
I have to go.

820
00:56:13,926 --> 00:56:16,464
Continue to drink liquids.
You get to 2000 a day, OK?

821
00:56:16,637 --> 00:56:17,799
OK.

822
00:56:20,933 --> 00:56:23,174
He says it all the time:

823
00:56:24,644 --> 00:56:26,139
"OK."

824
00:56:38,408 --> 00:56:39,688
So...

825
00:56:41,285 --> 00:56:45,746
the young doctor,
like the elderly scholar,

826
00:56:46,665 --> 00:56:50,497
prefers research to humanity.

827
00:56:51,503 --> 00:56:52,962
At the same time,

828
00:56:53,046 --> 00:56:58,004
the elderly scholar, in hers
pathetic state of dazed victim,

829
00:56:58,093 --> 00:57:02,042
would like the doctor to have
more interest in human contact.

830
00:57:03,890 --> 00:57:07,175
Now I guess we'll see
how did the elderly scholar...

831
00:57:07,268 --> 00:57:11,017
he cruelly refused
to his dazed students...

832
00:57:11,105 --> 00:57:15,399
that touch of human understanding
which he is now desperately seeking.

833
00:57:20,447 --> 00:57:22,155
How do you...

834
00:57:22,241 --> 00:57:25,076
How would you define... Her!

835
00:57:26,912 --> 00:57:30,078
How would you define strength
what animates this sonnet?

836
00:57:34,002 --> 00:57:36,125
In this sonnet, what is...

837
00:57:36,212 --> 00:57:38,999
the main poetic tool?
I'll give you a hint:

838
00:57:39,090 --> 00:57:41,166
It has nothing to do with football.

839
00:57:41,259 --> 00:57:43,050
What drives this sonnet?

840
00:57:47,265 --> 00:57:51,096
You can come into this class prepared,
or may be exempted from this course,

841
00:57:51,185 --> 00:57:53,854
from this faculty and this university.

842
00:57:54,146 --> 00:57:57,681
But you don't think I will tolerate it
something in between.

843
00:58:02,654 --> 00:58:04,196
Did I perhaps say:

844
00:58:05,073 --> 00:58:09,320
"At 19 you are so young!

845
00:58:09,869 --> 00:58:12,704
"You can't tell the difference
a sonnet from a sandwich."

846
00:58:16,125 --> 00:58:17,703
I wish I had said it!

847
00:58:19,003 --> 00:58:20,794
To examine the verse properly,

848
00:58:21,213 --> 00:58:24,547
we must take advantage
of contemporary flexibility...

849
00:58:24,633 --> 00:58:29,129
of all those words that end
"ion", as, for example, "expansion".

850
00:58:29,805 --> 00:58:32,260
The quatrain reads:

851
00:58:32,641 --> 00:58:37,101
"There are therefore two souls, which are one,

852
00:58:37,521 --> 00:58:41,600
"And yet I must go,
bear not a tear

853
00:58:41,858 --> 00:58:44,894
"But an expansion

854
00:58:44,986 --> 00:58:49,363
"Like gold, to give
air to thick fog"

855
00:58:50,908 --> 00:58:53,066
Don't forget this while reading it.

856
00:58:53,327 --> 00:58:55,403
That's all for today.

857
00:59:09,134 --> 00:59:11,625
Professor Bearing?
Can I talk to you for a minute?

858
00:59:11,720 --> 00:59:12,918
Yes, it can.

859
00:59:14,013 --> 00:59:16,385
I won't be able to finish
my exercises on time.

860
00:59:16,474 --> 00:59:20,768
- I need an extension, because, you see,...
- Yes, I know, his grandmother died.

861
00:59:22,021 --> 00:59:23,978
- Did you know?
- No, I guessed right.

862
00:59:24,398 --> 00:59:25,643
So I have to go home.

863
00:59:25,733 --> 00:59:28,687
As you wish,
but the exercises must be submitted on time.

864
00:59:43,208 --> 00:59:44,916
I do not know.

865
00:59:47,086 --> 00:59:49,459
I feel so...

866
00:59:52,884 --> 00:59:54,544
What is the right word?

867
00:59:54,719 --> 00:59:59,380
I see those scenes again and I...

868
01:00:44,433 --> 01:00:47,848
Miss Bearing, excuse me,
Is she the one who rings at 4:00 in the morning?

869
01:00:52,607 --> 01:00:54,231
Did I wake her up?

870
01:00:54,317 --> 01:00:58,184
Excuse me,
but this device is acting up.

871
01:00:58,362 --> 01:01:01,814
- I was awake anyway.
- Really?

872
01:01:02,450 --> 01:01:04,323
What's happening, dear?

873
01:01:04,410 --> 01:01:06,367
I do not know.

874
01:01:07,454 --> 01:01:08,865
Can't sleep?

875
01:01:09,707 --> 01:01:10,869
No.

876
01:01:11,500 --> 01:01:13,077
I keep thinking.

877
01:01:13,669 --> 01:01:15,994
This doesn't help her and makes things worse.

878
01:01:16,088 --> 01:01:17,332
Yes, I know.

879
01:01:18,632 --> 01:01:21,169
I have a lot of that confusion.

880
01:01:23,887 --> 01:01:27,137
I feel embarrassed. I have...

881
01:01:28,891 --> 01:01:30,765
so many of those doubts!

882
01:01:31,352 --> 01:01:33,807
What he is facing is not simple.

883
01:01:35,314 --> 01:01:39,312
- Yes, but I'm used to fighting.
- But this time you will need more courage.

884
01:01:39,693 --> 01:01:43,311
- You have the feeling of losing control.
- Yes.

885
01:01:45,449 --> 01:01:47,987
I am afraid.

886
01:01:48,493 --> 01:01:52,028
Oh, honey. I know, dear.

887
01:01:54,708 --> 01:01:56,783
I got nervous...

888
01:01:57,585 --> 01:02:01,168
Suddenly
I don't feel confident anymore.

889
01:02:01,506 --> 01:02:03,545
Whereas before you felt confident, right?

890
01:02:03,633 --> 01:02:07,500
Yes, I don't know what's happening to me.

891
01:02:07,595 --> 01:02:11,592
I know. Oh, honey. Everything is fine. Really.

892
01:02:12,182 --> 01:02:14,638
I know it hurts, I know, dear.

893
01:02:14,727 --> 01:02:16,185
It will pass.

894
01:02:24,319 --> 01:02:25,599
Wait a minute. Get one.

895
01:02:26,571 --> 01:02:27,899
Everything is fine.

896
01:02:29,824 --> 01:02:32,397
Everything will be fine. You'll see.

897
01:02:33,745 --> 01:02:36,781
Hey, Vivian? Do you want a popsicle?

898
01:02:38,124 --> 01:02:40,033
- Yes, thank you.
- OK.

899
01:02:40,418 --> 01:02:43,205
I'll go get one.
It'll take a minute.

900
01:02:48,884 --> 01:02:51,090
My skin cells...

901
01:02:51,928 --> 01:02:54,598
of the gastrointestinal tract...

902
01:02:54,681 --> 01:02:57,006
they were all killed by chemo.

903
01:02:57,726 --> 01:03:00,810
The popsicle gives me some relief.

904
01:03:01,813 --> 01:03:05,561
It's something I can stomach
and keeps me hydrated.

905
01:03:06,359 --> 01:03:07,853
For your information.

906
01:03:12,198 --> 01:03:14,274
Here, here.

907
01:03:19,830 --> 01:03:21,869
- Here.
- Are you sure?

908
01:03:23,667 --> 01:03:26,074
- Thank you.
- To you.

909
01:03:43,269 --> 01:03:46,056
You know, when I was a child
they brought them to us in a van.

910
01:03:46,438 --> 01:03:49,392
A guy with a hat came,
the horn sounded...

911
01:03:49,483 --> 01:03:51,725
and we ran towards him.

912
01:03:51,819 --> 01:03:55,318
He gave us ice lollies,
which we were fond of.

913
01:03:57,074 --> 01:03:58,900
I know it's a bit trivial.

914
01:04:00,076 --> 01:04:01,535
Those are great memories.

915
01:04:06,916 --> 01:04:09,834
There's something we should talk about.

916
01:04:10,378 --> 01:04:12,703
It's important to do it right away.

917
01:04:16,801 --> 01:04:19,089
My cancer, unfortunately,
It can't heal, can it?

918
01:04:25,601 --> 01:04:28,270
And have doctors always known this?

919
01:04:30,021 --> 01:04:33,437
Well, they thought
that the drugs would shrink the tumor.

920
01:04:33,567 --> 01:04:36,982
And in fact it has become much smaller.

921
01:04:37,904 --> 01:04:41,273
But the problem is that it's starting
also in other parts.

922
01:04:41,616 --> 01:04:45,198
Over the years, in this field,
research has made great strides...

923
01:04:45,286 --> 01:04:48,073
and this was the best cure
that they had to offer you. It's just that...

924
01:04:49,081 --> 01:04:52,664
There's no real cure for what you have,

925
01:04:53,043 --> 01:04:55,036
for ovarian cancer.

926
01:04:58,382 --> 01:05:01,169
They should have told you the truth.

927
01:05:03,011 --> 01:05:04,256
I knew it.

928
01:05:06,640 --> 01:05:07,719
Really?

929
01:05:10,393 --> 01:05:12,682
I read it between the lines.

930
01:05:23,030 --> 01:05:26,280
Well, now you have to think
on the code you want them to adopt,

931
01:05:27,117 --> 01:05:29,573
in case...

932
01:05:30,287 --> 01:05:32,363
your heart stopped beating.

933
01:05:34,666 --> 01:05:36,041
Continues.

934
01:05:37,127 --> 01:05:40,994
So, you can have the whole code.
It means if your heart stops,

935
01:05:41,089 --> 01:05:46,083
we would alert the code blue and a team,
in 10 seconds, he would come to revive you...

936
01:05:46,177 --> 01:05:49,593
and would put you in intensive care
until stabilization.

937
01:05:49,931 --> 01:05:52,884
Or you can choose...

938
01:05:53,017 --> 01:05:55,175
"Do Not Resuscitate",

939
01:05:55,478 --> 01:05:58,051
which means that if your
heart should stop,

940
01:06:00,149 --> 01:06:01,856
Well, we'd leave it at that.

941
01:06:02,526 --> 01:06:04,518
You would be an "N.R."

942
01:06:06,113 --> 01:06:09,564
It's up to you to decide. But I...

943
01:06:09,950 --> 01:06:13,153
I wanted to present both hypotheses to you,

944
01:06:13,328 --> 01:06:17,456
before Kelekian and Jason
they would talk to you about it.

945
01:06:20,835 --> 01:06:24,702
- Why, are they against it?
- A doctor never gives up.

946
01:06:25,506 --> 01:06:28,542
So as long as life goes on,
everything is fine.

947
01:06:29,552 --> 01:06:33,252
It doesn't matter if you are attacked
to a million cars.

948
01:06:34,515 --> 01:06:36,721
Kelekian is an excellent researcher...

949
01:06:36,808 --> 01:06:39,845
and all his assistants
they are good people.

950
01:06:40,437 --> 01:06:43,936
It's an honor for them to work with him...

951
01:06:45,316 --> 01:06:49,184
and the thing that unites them
It is the thirst for knowledge.

952
01:06:50,154 --> 01:06:52,361
Then I'll join the group too.

953
01:06:54,742 --> 01:06:56,402
I'm a scholar.

954
01:06:58,704 --> 01:07:00,198
Or, rather, I was.

955
01:07:01,540 --> 01:07:03,331
When I had shoes.

956
01:07:05,002 --> 01:07:06,875
When I had eyebrows.

957
01:07:09,339 --> 01:07:13,123
You don't have to worry,
you will have a whole code.

958
01:07:17,097 --> 01:07:18,211
No.

959
01:07:19,516 --> 01:07:20,844
Don't complicate the issue.

960
01:07:21,059 --> 01:07:23,597
Are you kidding me? You have to choose.

961
01:07:26,606 --> 01:07:28,183
Let it stop.

962
01:07:30,317 --> 01:07:31,515
Seriously?

963
01:07:32,653 --> 01:07:33,732
Yes.

964
01:07:35,072 --> 01:07:37,397
So if your heart stops beating...

965
01:07:40,160 --> 01:07:41,738
You leave him alone.

966
01:07:46,333 --> 01:07:47,495
Are you sure?

967
01:07:51,045 --> 01:07:52,243
Yes.

968
01:07:55,049 --> 01:07:56,128
OK.

969
01:07:56,676 --> 01:08:00,045
OK, I'll go find Kelekian
to give him the order, and then...

970
01:08:00,638 --> 01:08:01,836
Susie?

971
01:08:06,560 --> 01:08:09,680
Will you continue to take care of me?

972
01:08:10,314 --> 01:08:12,022
Yes, of course.

973
01:08:12,357 --> 01:08:14,350
Don't worry, dear.

974
01:08:31,876 --> 01:08:32,907
OK.

975
01:08:41,677 --> 01:08:42,875
Thank you.

976
01:09:12,790 --> 01:09:15,909
I have to acknowledge
which was a cloying scene.

977
01:09:17,252 --> 01:09:19,826
An ice lolly, dear? "Darling"...

978
01:09:21,465 --> 01:09:24,216
I didn't expect such a mushy life.

979
01:09:26,594 --> 01:09:29,797
But this is the only possible way
for me.

980
01:09:30,390 --> 01:09:34,221
Here we are talking
of life and death,

981
01:09:34,644 --> 01:09:39,471
and not even so much in the abstract,
because we are talking...

982
01:09:39,565 --> 01:09:40,885
of my life and my death.

983
01:09:41,734 --> 01:09:44,569
And there's no other way to say it.

984
01:09:47,489 --> 01:09:50,905
But now is no longer the time
to engage in verbal skirmishes.

985
01:09:51,576 --> 01:09:55,954
Nothing would be more out of place
of a detailed learned analysis.

986
01:09:57,082 --> 01:10:00,865
Of erudition, of interpretation,
of the complication...

987
01:10:01,878 --> 01:10:03,076
No.

988
01:10:04,088 --> 01:10:06,710
It's time for simplicity.

989
01:10:08,009 --> 01:10:10,500
It's time,

990
01:10:11,846 --> 01:10:13,554
above all,

991
01:10:14,682 --> 01:10:16,092
of kindness.

992
01:10:21,355 --> 01:10:24,724
Yes. I thought being very careful...

993
01:10:25,233 --> 01:10:27,190
it would have been enough.

994
01:10:28,862 --> 01:10:31,649
But I think I didn't succeed.

995
01:10:44,001 --> 01:10:45,282
Oh. I am afraid.

996
01:10:49,006 --> 01:10:50,251
Oh, oh, God!

997
01:10:52,801 --> 01:10:55,007
I want... I want...

998
01:10:56,096 --> 01:10:57,887
I want...

999
01:11:00,850 --> 01:11:02,013
No. No.

1000
01:11:05,146 --> 01:11:09,475
I just want to hide.
I just want to curl up here.

1001
01:11:43,182 --> 01:11:47,262
I want to tell you...

1002
01:11:47,478 --> 01:11:49,221
what it feels like.

1003
01:11:51,273 --> 01:11:54,559
I want to explain it.

1004
01:11:56,320 --> 01:11:59,321
Use my words.

1005
01:12:00,866 --> 01:12:04,946
It's as if I couldn't.

1006
01:12:08,832 --> 01:12:10,871
They are not here.

1007
01:12:17,965 --> 01:12:20,421
It is an indescribable suffering.

1008
01:12:22,511 --> 01:12:24,420
Susie says...

1009
01:12:30,686 --> 01:12:35,394
that I have to succeed
to overcome acute pain,

1010
01:12:36,274 --> 01:12:40,106
if I want to stop it.

1011
01:12:42,155 --> 01:12:43,566
"The."

1012
01:12:44,324 --> 01:12:46,779
A little word that,

1013
01:12:50,121 --> 01:12:53,821
in this case,

1014
01:12:56,335 --> 01:13:00,878
it means still being alive.

1015
01:13:05,719 --> 01:13:06,999
OK.

1016
01:13:09,681 --> 01:13:12,433
We tracked down Dr. Kelekian.
He's coming here,

1017
01:13:12,517 --> 01:13:14,593
so he will give you something.

1018
01:13:14,686 --> 01:13:16,892
Oh, oh, my God.
God, this is so... so painful.

1019
01:13:16,980 --> 01:13:19,268
So painful.

1020
01:13:19,357 --> 01:13:22,523
Shh. Shh, I know. Just try to relax
and to free your mind.

1021
01:13:22,610 --> 01:13:24,602
Vivian, we'll give you a pain reliever
self-controlled.

1022
01:13:24,695 --> 01:13:27,482
It's a small pump with a button.
All you have to do is press it...

1023
01:13:27,573 --> 01:13:30,111
to decide how much medicine you want.

1024
01:13:30,200 --> 01:13:32,905
It's a very easy thing
that you can manage.

1025
01:13:32,995 --> 01:13:34,157
OK.

1026
01:13:35,747 --> 01:13:37,906
Dr. Bearing. Susie.

1027
01:13:38,000 --> 01:13:41,249
Let's give her the self-monitored pain reliever.
The pain is killing her.

1028
01:13:41,336 --> 01:13:43,874
Miss Bearing, you are in pain, aren't you?

1029
01:13:44,673 --> 01:13:46,998
It's intolerable, believe me.

1030
01:13:47,759 --> 01:13:48,921
Morphine drip.

1031
01:13:49,010 --> 01:13:51,679
What about the self-controlled?
It would keep her more alert.

1032
01:13:51,763 --> 01:13:53,802
This usually happens, but not in his case.

1033
01:13:53,890 --> 01:13:57,258
- But I really think it would be...
- He needs to rest.

1034
01:13:59,061 --> 01:14:01,932
Morphine. 10 right away
and to start with 10 every hour.

1035
01:14:02,064 --> 01:14:05,148
Miss, try to relax now.
We'll help you.

1036
01:14:05,234 --> 01:14:06,514
Don't worry.

1037
01:14:09,946 --> 01:14:11,061
Excellent.

1038
01:15:01,078 --> 01:15:02,241
Greetings.

1039
01:15:03,664 --> 01:15:05,538
How are you doing today?

1040
01:15:08,043 --> 01:15:11,792
These are my last coherent sentences.

1041
01:15:12,839 --> 01:15:15,081
I leave...

1042
01:15:16,301 --> 01:15:20,595
the scene to professionals.

1043
01:15:22,849 --> 01:15:27,475
It arrived suddenly,
when it seemed so far away.

1044
01:15:30,690 --> 01:15:34,770
It was... There isn't even time anymore
for a worthy conclusion.

1045
01:15:42,993 --> 01:15:46,658
Susie, do you think that will have
a soporific effect?

1046
01:15:47,205 --> 01:15:50,788
I don't know this,
but one thing is certain, dear, it will make you sleep.

1047
01:15:57,048 --> 01:15:58,708
Why are you laughing?

1048
01:16:01,636 --> 01:16:02,750
At that time? What is it?

1049
01:16:07,767 --> 01:16:09,177
Nothing.

1050
01:16:11,145 --> 01:16:14,146
Sorry but "soporific" means...

1051
01:16:14,648 --> 01:16:16,391
"that makes you sleep".

1052
01:16:18,277 --> 01:16:19,475
Really?

1053
01:16:22,614 --> 01:16:24,274
Then I said something really stupid.

1054
01:16:24,824 --> 01:16:27,944
No! I mean, yes, but it was funny.

1055
01:16:29,287 --> 01:16:31,992
Yes? But it's still nonsense.

1056
01:16:41,298 --> 01:16:44,465
Oh, I'm very happy
that you explained it to me.

1057
01:16:45,803 --> 01:16:47,795
I would never have gotten there.

1058
01:16:51,141 --> 01:16:52,339
I'm a teacher.

1059
01:17:40,521 --> 01:17:45,183
She was a great scholar. Ha
written tons of books and articles.

1060
01:17:45,860 --> 01:17:47,567
He was a celebrity.

1061
01:17:48,237 --> 01:17:51,440
People made way for her when she passed.

1062
01:17:56,328 --> 01:18:00,871
275, 520.
We need to increase hydration.

1063
01:18:00,957 --> 01:18:04,622
Let's see if we can
to keep the kidneys from failing.

1064
01:18:04,711 --> 01:18:06,253
Yes, I had great respect for her.

1065
01:18:06,337 --> 01:18:09,124
More than I have
for the entire Department of Biochemistry.

1066
01:18:09,215 --> 01:18:11,967
- What do you want, dextrose?
- Saline solution.

1067
01:18:13,094 --> 01:18:16,961
He taught everyone a good lesson.
No notes, never a word out of place.

1068
01:18:17,056 --> 01:18:19,677
Remarkable, no doubt about it.
But many students hated her.

1069
01:18:19,767 --> 01:18:22,768
- Why?
- Simple, he wasn't a sugar daddy.

1070
01:18:22,853 --> 01:18:25,260
Well, it wasn't a sweetheart here either.

1071
01:18:25,355 --> 01:18:29,435
Miss Bearing,
Now Jason and I are going to put a catheter in her.

1072
01:18:29,526 --> 01:18:32,527
- It won't hurt, so don't worry.
- As if he heard you.

1073
01:18:32,737 --> 01:18:36,438
- It's a kindness.
- 8 cycles with Esa and Vin at full dosage.

1074
01:18:36,533 --> 01:18:38,739
Kelekian thought it was impossible.

1075
01:18:38,826 --> 01:18:41,744
If the others were also going full throttle,
then yes we would have data.

1076
01:18:41,829 --> 01:18:43,407
I had a different idea.

1077
01:18:43,748 --> 01:18:46,499
I thought studying poetry
would make you more dreamers.

1078
01:18:46,584 --> 01:18:47,995
Not the way she did it.

1079
01:18:48,085 --> 01:18:50,292
His course resembled
to a military camp...

1080
01:18:50,379 --> 01:18:52,621
and this John Donne
it was incredibly profound.

1081
01:18:52,715 --> 01:18:55,632
Sometimes, before you understand it,
your brain was twisting.

1082
01:18:55,718 --> 01:18:58,754
- Did he complicate it on purpose?
- I wouldn't say so.

1083
01:18:58,845 --> 01:19:02,380
The <i>Sacred Sonnets</i> we worked on
they were about the anguish of salvation.

1084
01:19:02,474 --> 01:19:04,597
That's the summary I gave
to the poetry of John Donne...

1085
01:19:04,684 --> 01:19:06,309
and it fits him perfectly.

1086
01:19:06,394 --> 01:19:08,793
He is an exceptional, incredible character.
Just exceptional.

1087
01:19:08,813 --> 01:19:11,213
It makes it sound like Shakespeare's lines
of greeting cards.

1088
01:19:11,274 --> 01:19:12,851
You know you are a sinner.

1089
01:19:12,984 --> 01:19:15,735
There is a promise of total salvation,

1090
01:19:15,820 --> 01:19:16,968
which, however, you are unable to use.

1091
01:19:16,988 --> 01:19:19,858
- Why?
- Because it is not subject to feedback.

1092
01:19:19,949 --> 01:19:23,614
But you can't go through life without it
of her. Then write some twisted sonnets.

1093
01:19:23,702 --> 01:19:26,573
Just to make the puzzle more complicated.

1094
01:19:26,664 --> 01:19:27,862
And in the end, what happens?

1095
01:19:27,956 --> 01:19:31,076
- I do not understand.
- To John Donne. Does he get to grips with it?

1096
01:19:31,168 --> 01:19:33,160
- About what?
- Of the anguish of salvation.

1097
01:19:33,253 --> 01:19:35,459
- Can you understand?
- No, what are you saying? Are you kidding me?

1098
01:19:36,089 --> 01:19:39,707
It's the puzzle that wins.
You don't even try to solve it anymore.

1099
01:19:39,968 --> 01:19:43,502
It's truly fascinating.
It's like laboratory research.

1100
01:19:43,596 --> 01:19:45,719
Things appear more and more complex to you.

1101
01:19:45,807 --> 01:19:47,883
- Until when?
- What do you mean?

1102
01:19:47,975 --> 01:19:49,968
What happens to the
end? Will he solve the puzzle?

1103
01:19:50,061 --> 01:19:54,058
No. Ultimately,
the research only attempts to quantify...

1104
01:19:54,148 --> 01:19:55,559
the complications of the puzzle.

1105
01:19:55,649 --> 01:19:59,813
- You help people, you save lives!
- Of course, I save the life of someone,

1106
01:19:59,903 --> 01:20:02,655
who, then,
he goes out and ends up under a bus.

1107
01:20:02,781 --> 01:20:06,399
Yes, maybe. But I don't see it that way.

1108
01:20:06,618 --> 01:20:09,370
But I never followed
a poetry course.

1109
01:20:09,871 --> 01:20:13,038
You see, what poetry taught us
of the 18th century,

1110
01:20:13,124 --> 01:20:15,959
It's that you can say goodbye
to all that sentimental stuff.

1111
01:20:16,044 --> 01:20:18,713
True poetry
I found it in enzyme kinetics.

1112
01:20:18,796 --> 01:20:20,955
Also, if you're constantly thinking...

1113
01:20:21,048 --> 01:20:24,713
to all those stories about the meaning of life,
you go crazy.

1114
01:20:24,885 --> 01:20:27,637
- Do you believe it?
- I believe what?

1115
01:20:27,721 --> 01:20:30,473
To those stories about the meaning of life.

1116
01:20:31,975 --> 01:20:34,976
What they teach you
to nursing school?

1117
01:20:40,484 --> 01:20:43,188
It's gone. We don't have much left.

1118
01:20:46,865 --> 01:20:50,648
- Have you finished?
- Yes, I just have to clean up.

1119
01:20:57,833 --> 01:20:59,909
- We will see each other.
- HI.

1120
01:23:04,412 --> 01:23:05,954
I'm Evelyn.

1121
01:23:16,173 --> 01:23:17,453
Oh, God.

1122
01:23:22,679 --> 01:23:24,755
Professor Ashford?

1123
01:23:25,765 --> 01:23:27,010
Oh, God.

1124
01:23:29,477 --> 01:23:32,513
Oh. I came to town
to see my great-grandson.

1125
01:23:33,856 --> 01:23:36,727
Celebrating his fifth birthday.

1126
01:23:38,486 --> 01:23:40,977
I went to your office...

1127
01:23:41,405 --> 01:23:43,813
and they directed me here.

1128
01:23:47,536 --> 01:23:50,027
Oh. I walked all over the city.

1129
01:23:51,039 --> 01:23:54,622
I didn't remember
that the cold starts early here.

1130
01:23:59,172 --> 01:24:00,915
Oh. I feel so bad!

1131
01:24:04,510 --> 01:24:06,503
Yes, I imagine so, dear.

1132
01:24:07,221 --> 01:24:08,846
I see it.

1133
01:24:11,392 --> 01:24:13,799
Oh, oh, dear!

1134
01:24:15,104 --> 01:24:17,061
Oh, come on, come on.

1135
01:24:18,148 --> 01:24:19,975
Come on, come on!

1136
01:25:07,612 --> 01:25:09,486
Oh, Vivian. Vivian.

1137
01:25:15,286 --> 01:25:17,444
It's windy today.

1138
01:25:21,125 --> 01:25:23,164
Don't worry, dear.

1139
01:25:26,838 --> 01:25:28,249
We see.

1140
01:25:28,340 --> 01:25:31,673
I can recite something to you.
Would you like it, Vivian?

1141
01:25:32,385 --> 01:25:35,303
Something by John Donne.

1142
01:25:36,014 --> 01:25:37,389
No. No.

1143
01:25:40,351 --> 01:25:41,514
Okay.

1144
01:25:52,905 --> 01:25:54,482
We see.

1145
01:26:01,329 --> 01:26:05,742
<i>"The runaway bunny,"</i>
by Margaret Wise Brown.

1146
01:26:06,042 --> 01:26:08,498
"Illustrations by Clement Hurd.

1147
01:26:08,586 --> 01:26:11,540
"Copyright, 1942.

1148
01:26:12,548 --> 01:26:17,543
"First edition Harper Trophy, 1972.

1149
01:26:22,183 --> 01:26:25,551
"Once upon a time there was a little bunny
who wanted to escape.

1150
01:26:25,644 --> 01:26:29,179
"So he said to his mother:
'I'm running away from it.'

1151
01:26:29,898 --> 01:26:32,472
"'If you run away,' his mother told him,

1152
01:26:32,609 --> 01:26:34,649
"I'll run after you,

1153
01:26:34,736 --> 01:26:37,856
"'Cause you're mine
little bunny.'

1154
01:26:39,949 --> 01:26:43,069
"'If you will run after me,'
said the little bunny,

1155
01:26:43,286 --> 01:26:46,287
"'I'll become a little one
fish in a trout stream...

1156
01:26:46,372 --> 01:26:49,290
"'and I will swim away from you.'

1157
01:26:49,417 --> 01:26:53,249
"'If you become a little fish
in a trout stream,' said the mother,

1158
01:26:53,337 --> 01:26:57,465
"I'll become a fisherman,
I'll take my line and fish you."'

1159
01:26:58,175 --> 01:26:59,835
Oh, look.

1160
01:27:00,385 --> 01:27:03,220
A small allegory of the soul.

1161
01:27:03,847 --> 01:27:07,050
Wherever she hides, God will find her.

1162
01:27:08,560 --> 01:27:10,102
See, Vivian?

1163
01:27:14,023 --> 01:27:17,108
"'If you become a fisherman,'
said the bunny,

1164
01:27:17,193 --> 01:27:20,526
"I'll turn him into a bird
and will fly away from you.'

1165
01:27:21,197 --> 01:27:25,491
"'If you will become a bird and fly away,'
said the mother,

1166
01:27:25,576 --> 01:27:29,408
"'I will be the tree
on which you will return to rest."'

1167
01:27:31,623 --> 01:27:33,248
Ah, very wise.

1168
01:27:38,255 --> 01:27:41,006
"'What a pain! ' he said
the little bunny,

1169
01:27:41,091 --> 01:27:44,424
"'Then you mean
that I will stay where I am, mother,

1170
01:27:44,511 --> 01:27:47,630
"'and he'll be your little bunny.'

1171
01:27:47,764 --> 01:27:49,637
"And so he did.

1172
01:27:51,267 --> 01:27:54,221
"'Take a carrot,'
said mother bunny."

1173
01:27:59,108 --> 01:28:00,650
Magnificent.

1174
01:28:07,241 --> 01:28:08,651
It's time for me to go.

1175
01:28:41,732 --> 01:28:45,859
"What an angel's flight
may they lead you with songs to your rest."

1176
01:29:58,680 --> 01:30:01,384
Professor, how are you today?

1177
01:30:03,100 --> 01:30:06,054
3:00 in the afternoon,
intravenously, complete hydration.

1178
01:30:06,645 --> 01:30:10,643
Inputs 2000, emissions 30.
Oh. Well, here we are.

1179
01:30:10,733 --> 01:30:12,476
Kidneys gone. Professor Bearing?

1180
01:30:16,196 --> 01:30:18,319
"Totally inert."

1181
01:30:26,498 --> 01:30:27,908
Hey, wait a minute.

1182
01:30:34,422 --> 01:30:36,580
4, 5, 7, 5...

1183
01:30:36,716 --> 01:30:39,586
Code blue, room 707. Code blue.

1184
01:30:39,677 --> 01:30:42,084
Dr. Posner, P-O-S-N-E-R. Soon!

1185
01:31:09,664 --> 01:31:13,198
1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9,

1186
01:31:13,292 --> 01:31:15,997
10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 15.

1187
01:31:17,421 --> 01:31:18,981
- What are you doing?
- Give me the code...

1188
01:31:19,047 --> 01:31:20,707
- It's an N.R.!
- It's about research!

1189
01:31:20,799 --> 01:31:21,914
It's without code! Jason!

1190
01:31:22,426 --> 01:31:23,920
It's without code!

1191
01:31:24,011 --> 01:31:27,426
When Kelekian gave the order,
you were there, so stop it!

1192
01:31:27,597 --> 01:31:28,760
Oh God, the code!

1193
01:31:31,101 --> 01:31:32,861
4, 5, 7, 5. Cancel
the code, room 707.

1194
01:31:32,894 --> 01:31:34,436
I'm the head nurse.

1195
01:31:34,520 --> 01:31:35,931
No, Dr. Posner �... No!

1196
01:31:36,022 --> 01:31:39,521
No, no, no, no, the patient has no code!
It's a N.R.!

1197
01:31:39,609 --> 01:31:42,146
The patient is an N.R.!

1198
01:31:42,820 --> 01:31:45,192
She is... Listen to me! � "Do Not Resuscitate"!

1199
01:31:45,281 --> 01:31:47,772
The patient has no code.

1200
01:31:47,866 --> 01:31:50,820
The patient has no code.
The order has been given!

1201
01:31:51,453 --> 01:31:52,532
Enough!

1202
01:31:58,668 --> 01:32:00,246
It says "Do Not Resuscitate"!

1203
01:32:00,337 --> 01:32:01,961
Get away from the bed.

1204
01:32:04,424 --> 01:32:05,669
Free.

1205
01:32:05,758 --> 01:32:10,171
- Hey, listen. I made a mistake.
- The patient has no code. It's a N.R.!

1206
01:32:11,055 --> 01:32:13,842
- Who the hell are you?
- I'm Sue Monahan, the head nurse.

1207
01:32:13,933 --> 01:32:15,890
Give me the damn folder.

1208
01:32:18,187 --> 01:32:20,512
The patient has no code!
Come on, move away!

1209
01:32:20,606 --> 01:32:22,645
"Do not resuscitate. Kelekian."

1210
01:32:23,025 --> 01:32:24,816
The order is from yesterday.

1211
01:32:24,902 --> 01:32:27,475
- It's his fault.
- What is this, an interior?

1212
01:32:27,571 --> 01:32:29,362
He had us come for an N.R.

1213
01:32:31,199 --> 01:32:32,824
He called a code that wasn't there.

1214
01:33:18,786 --> 01:33:20,577
<i>"Death</i>

1215
01:33:20,663 --> 01:33:22,240
<i>"Don't be proud</i>

1216
01:33:23,457 --> 01:33:27,668
<i>"Even if some have called you
terrible and powerful,</i>

1217
01:33:27,920 --> 01:33:31,170
<i>"Because you're not</i>

1218
01:33:34,051 --> 01:33:38,428
<i>"For all who believe
to be able to overwhelm</i>

1219
01:33:38,596 --> 01:33:41,467
<i>"They do not die, miserable death,</i>

1220
01:33:41,558 --> 01:33:44,761
<i>"Not even you can kill me.</i>

1221
01:33:45,645 --> 01:33:49,096
<i>"You are a slave to Fate</i>

1222
01:33:49,190 --> 01:33:54,101
<i>"Of Chance, of kings and desperate men.</i>

1223
01:33:54,403 --> 01:33:59,231
<i>"You accompany yourself with poison,
war and disease.</i>

1224
01:34:00,492 --> 01:34:04,905
<i>"But equally opium or spells
they can make us sleep</i>

1225
01:34:04,997 --> 01:34:07,369
<i>"Even better than your touch.</i>

1226
01:34:09,584 --> 01:34:12,336
<i>"So what are you proud of?</i>

1227
01:34:13,463 --> 01:34:16,250
<i>"After the short sleep will pass</i>

1228
01:34:16,674 --> 01:34:19,212
<i>"We will wake up for eternity.</i>

1229
01:34:20,052 --> 01:34:23,137
<i>"And death will be no more,"</i>

1230
01:34:23,222 --> 01:34:24,716
<i>Comma.</i>

1231
01:34:26,225 --> 01:34:29,724
<i>"Death you will die."</i>